Hey loves
Yesterday was a hard day.
It made me put some things into perspective.
Today is a little better.
My blog will not be found on Google search anymore.
That's all I can do to prevent naive and young people from finding this and thinking that it will help them get an eating disorder.
I hope it will be enough.
It was a rocky emotional weekend here too.
How can I feel so much in so little time?
Well, not as much as I expected to eat.
Some pizza, some cake, mom's special recipe for fried potatoes.
I am not going to lie and say I didn't eat a lot.
Because I did.
And I didn't count a thing.
There was no point.
Mom puts too many ingredients in her meals to keep track of all of them.
Well, you know how I said that I felt like I was somewhere in the 150s?
Not quite.
149.8.
I stepped a lot and on different surfaces just to check.
It stayed 149.8.
I thought I weighed more than that.
I can't say I'm happy about it, but it seems Blondie didn't lie.
And I'm here posting on Blogger.
I am too irresponsible.
Much love <3
Getting emails like that can be hard. Honestly, I think the best thing to do is ignore them. Replying, even with good intentions, only opens Pandora's box. I'm glad you're not going to stop posting though. I thought about deleting my blog from Google's search, but a lot of the damage has been done as far as Real Life people reading my blog goes.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weigh in! :)
<3
xx
I can't even imagine what it would feel like if I knew that my friends and family read this blog.
DeleteI'd probably delete it. I don't know.
I did reply, but she didn't reply back. I hope that means she gave up, but somehow I think she didn't.
Thanks :)
<3
i'm sorry for how you were feeling yesterday.
ReplyDeletei read your comment and i understood what you meant about the entire 'people finding it a lifestyle' perspective. i just hope you're feeling better. the reason why i mention the whole 'put me in your situation' angle is because often enough, we think rationally when it's someone else's problem and not ours. and it helps me figure out things when i'm stuck.
that doesn't sound like much darling. today, i'm had two Oreo's (mega golden ones!), a protein bar, some coffee, and i'm going to eat a whole pizza by myself when i go home. i just haven't figured out what kind yet...
you and i are in a similar weight range! i'm about a pound less at the moment. i've put on a bit of muscle too (not as much as you can though - i remember being jealous of your measurements decreasing and your BF%. i cannot get it to change that quickly!).
"I am too irresponsible." nah, you're too cute.
i love you, dear.
-Sam Lupin
Don't be, we all have good and bad days.
DeleteIt's a good strategy I think, but I don't remember to do that often.
Aww :)
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