They were brave

Hey loves

So I am sticking to my March resolutions.

About the eating:
500ml milk            170
1 tbsp shake           60
100g chicken        116
150g vegetables    108
42g peanuts           248
2 shoots vodka      194
0.33 of 1 guarana    38
100 ml orange juice 46

Total of: 980cals, 52g protein, 72g carbs, 30g fat and 1g fiber

So I took some advice that Fat Piggy gave me.
I decided to make myself happy
I had my nails done today and I my manicurist used termogel which is awesome.
It goes from lilac when cold to light purple when warm.
I absolutely love them.

I also went out tonight.
I had a great time.
There's a picture of me waiting at the end of this post.

Love you and thanks for the support. Seriously. <3

“Draw a monster. Why is it a monster?”

Hey loves...

I've been thinking a lot about the title of the post.
I know what I'd draw. Myself.
Why?
Because I'm a paradox.

I wan't to be happy so badly, yet I always catch myself thinking of the things that make me sad. And I laugh all the time, but it's not a happy laugh at all.

I'm ambitious and I want to be perfect in everything I do, but I'm too lazy to do anything of great importance for myself.

I hate don't like myself. I know I'm fat. I know I'm a failure. I love WHO I am though.

I don't think anyone can understand. I can't understand. I am a walking contradiction (although it might have something to do with the fact that I'm a Gemini).

Anyway, today's the start of March.
I like to begin on firsts.
So I am changing myself starting today.

Starting with food.
I am not eating bread anymore.
I am not eating sweets anymore. *sorry Sammy*
I am drinking a lot of water.
I am exercising properly.

My meals will consist of shake for breakfast, small fruity snack, normal lunch (what is normal?), small snack, shake for dinner.

I will try to be truly happy, do the things that make me see the bright side, ignore the depressing thoughts.
I will do more to enhance my abilities instead of being a couch potato.

I will lose 10 lbs in March.

Love you <3