Hey lovelies,
it's been a while.
I don't really know what to say.
All I really seem to do is complain.
During the past few months I was at 130 at my lowest and at 164 at my highest.
I broke a leg during the time. And I mean quite literally.
So I am back at around 155. I'll weigh myself in the morning.
My prom is coming up in May.
I really need to go back to being thin.
Well, 130 wasn't really thin but it was thin compared to now.
Oh, and I don't know if I've told you, but I've started smoking.
I'm smoking Eve 120s right now.
And at the same time, the cigarettes make me sick and make me calm.
I am not happy.
I'm starting lvl10 training starting Saturday.
It's a challenge and it lasts for 90 days.
I want to be able to complete the ABC at least once.
So starting today, ABC, here I come.
I find it to be an awesome trigger book.
If you're recovering ignore this, please.
I don't want to be to blame for pulling you down the rabbit hole with me again.
And it's not really a rabbit hole because we're not Alice.
This is a hell hole and we are all searching for something we can't get.
My next thought is "broken hearts lie all around me."
Well, at least I'm listening to good quality music, right?
How have you been?
I've missed you a lot, especially my two beauties EnglishRose and Sammy.
I'm going to check out their blogs right now to see what they are up to.
Much love girls <3
