Hey loves...
I've been thinking a lot about the title of the post.
I know what I'd draw. Myself.
Why?
Because I'm a paradox.
I wan't to be happy so badly, yet I always catch myself thinking of the things that make me sad. And I laugh all the time, but it's not a happy laugh at all.
I'm ambitious and I want to be perfect in everything I do, but I'm too lazy to do anything of great importance for myself.
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I don't think anyone can understand. I can't understand. I am a walking contradiction (although it might have something to do with the fact that I'm a Gemini).
Anyway, today's the start of March.
I like to begin on firsts.
So I am changing myself starting today.
Starting with food.
I am not eating bread anymore.
I am not eating sweets anymore. *sorry Sammy*
I am drinking a lot of water.
I am exercising properly.
My meals will consist of shake for breakfast, small fruity snack, normal lunch (what is normal?), small snack, shake for dinner.
I will try to be truly happy, do the things that make me see the bright side, ignore the depressing thoughts.
I will do more to enhance my abilities instead of being a couch potato.
I will lose 10 lbs in March.
Love you <3
paradoxes are cool. shhhhhhhhh. darling. *kisses* i think you're an angel.
ReplyDeleteGemini's are hot, man. they're hot.
"I like to begin on firsts." me too!!!
awwwwwwww honey. i love that you gave me a mini "oh include Sam in this one". i can't say i've not had sweets. i've put a tablespoon and a teaspoon of sugar in my porridge this morning.
couch potatoes are fun though.
good luck with the 10lbs mark. it's a lot for me but i don't know about you. <3
in fact, losing a lb for me is a big deal at the moment!
-Sam Lupin
Sam, you're always included. :D
DeleteLosing anything is a big deal at the moment but I want to encourage myself to lose A LOT.
<3
The thing about happiness is that you have to actively seek it. I had this little crisis about a month ago where I realised that I had completely lost it because I was waiting for happiness to come to me. and it never will. Perhaps set yourself happiness goals (that aren't related to your weight) and strive to reach one every month. Mine for February was to go on a date. I went on two. They were both fucking disasterous. But the great thing that came out of it was that I turned around and was like. bitch, I'm TOO good for this shit. So it all worked out. You'll be okay. Take what you want. Xo
ReplyDeleteI'm taking the advice.
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I heard that quote a few days ago and it really got me thinking on the whole subject of monsters. I like how you explained how you feel like a paradox, too. I feel like that a lot of the time. Good luck with your March goals. 10lbs in a month is a lot, but I'm cheering you on the whole way.
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It does make you think, doesn't it?
DeleteI think most of us do. That is why we understand each other so well.
Thanks love <3