Hello loves...
It's Christmas for the Ortodox aka my family and me.
Lots of eating and crying and whatnot...
Mom found my Thinspo-notebook. She burned it and made me eat. She didn't even let me set foot out of the house, let alone go to the gym. She also banned me from the internet.
She let me on now because it's Christmas and the house is a mess with all the children playing and making noise.
I hope she stops paying attention to me.
I got even fatter if that's possible.
157.4
It makes me want to cry.
I am so miserable at this weight it's unbelievable.
Lying, Cheating, Starving and Purging; welcome back to my life.
oh my God is she insane i wouldn't even omg
ReplyDeletegorgeous i'm so sorry that sounds so
ugh! :(
if it helps, i'd still donate a kidney for 157.4, you know?
i love you, pretty girl. don't do anything too rash. :( it hurts me that you're all in so much pain
-Sam Lupin
Sorry your mom found your book. Maybe just pacify her for a bit and she will ease up. Make healthy choices and eat them in front of her so her worries go away. take care
ReplyDeleteShe found it on the 29th of November. I'm pacifying her so much, she might turn into a baby soon.
DeleteSending you a hug x
ReplyDeletehugging back x
DeleteMy mom found my book a few days ago too. She didn't say anything but I know she read it though because the pages are all messed up. But you can definetly do what ednos Linny said and you mom will forget about it, seems like she already is a bit by letting you online. :)
ReplyDeleteDid she change her behavior towards you?
DeleteMy mom turned around completely after my little secret was out.
So that's what happened. I can't believe she burned it. Sounds like something my mom would have done.
ReplyDeleteI don't even know what to say. Moments like this I am glad I don't live with my parents anymore. At one point my mom was watching me and everything I did and it drove me crazy.
Try and stay focused if you can with the eating. I know with her watching you will probably be impossible but figured it was worth trying. I know you will not be able to work out. My mom was able to go 8 months without gaining weight from not working out by just watching what she ate. Sadly that doesn't work so well for me :-/
Yeah, it was pretty awful watching all the years of collecting go to ashes... xD
DeleteI'll just make a new one though..
xox