Hey loves...
So guess what?
You were all wrong. xD
I'm the one on the right.
I don't know how to feel about that one.
I still haven't got my scale back or my gym membership.
I'm slipping back into my old habits though.
Mom's holiday is finally over.
So today looks like this:
1 orange (80)
2 cups of chicken soup (300)
2 chocolates with rum (200)
total: 580
I know that this may sound weird, but I've been feeling terribly anxious since my mom found the book.
Not being able to weigh, not being able to post, not being able to exercise.
It kept me on the edge half the time, the other half I was trying to get it through my thick skull that what I was doing before wasn't good for me. Seems like it all backfired, considering the fact that I'm back and everything.
What I'm trying to say is that this feels safe.
It feels like this starving, obsessed, posting on here me is okay.
That scares me a lot.
I was in a rush to post yesterday so I answered all of your comments in the box bellow my post. Sorry about that one.
Comments:
Ruby-tuesday Nope ;) I managed to trick all of you.
Talj Yeah, gym does that to you. Thanks :)
EnglishRose Long time no see, honey... We're both 5'5. I'm wearing heels though. :)
Ednos Linny I don't look THAT old, do I? :D
well the one on the right had hot boobs so
ReplyDeletethat masks thing is pretty!
and ohh nice intake
why the hell does my comments die
-Sam Lupin
do u mean as uve been away or i have??
ReplyDeletewell u have amazing boobs XD wish i actually had boobs! haha nope that disnt sound creepy at all
annnnyway
i think you just need a way of expressing the thoughts you have daily somewhere safe whatever form it is just honestly make sure u have time to think and reflect it does help
much love
thanks for the comment btw
xx
I know what you mean by feeling like like the starved and posting you is safe. I think its just the fact that you can be honest and vent and get your emotions out. Be heard and have people care about you (cause we do!).
ReplyDeletexoxo
What is so scary about seeing pics of the people behind these blogs is that they look so normal. I think that we have this idea of what EDs are supposed to look like. Either way, you are very beautiful. AND TALL. I LOVE TALL PEOPLE! excellllllent. And whatever about your mother. I have always thought that we give those people way too much power. They can't do anything. Xo
ReplyDeleteNo you dont look old the girl in the red looks young and I am horrible at guessing games. You have to remember my daughter and I are only 20 years apart so I think everyone had children young. Also you look much taller than 5'5" even with the heels on. Very beautiful though!!
ReplyDeleteI just got back here on blogger so I will be reading the post backwards so you are going to see lots from me.
ReplyDeleteHoly crap. That sucks. I am choosing to go without my scale so that is totally different. But you cant' post or do anything. Not cool.
I am glad to hear from you.
No Scales No Gym! >.< Nightmare!
ReplyDeleteLove your blog my pretty little fairy x