This.

Don't scream when he takes the first bite...

I was doing the challenge for the past few days, but it's not working out so well for me.
Every day I get to 60 and then I fail (exercise or food).
It's like Im afraid of being thin, beautiful... perfect.
It's like I will run out of excuses once I am thin enough
I hate it.


So from now on, no more challenges.
Heavy r&e (restricting and exercise).

Stay strong lovelies <3

Challenge Day 1- 60points

Food: 0 points
Breakfast + Lunch + cake + mom at home + cousins visiting = me depressed with too much food in my belly

Exercise: 20 points
1 hour running in place (around 500cals)
my dancing lesson tonight (around 150)

Water: 20 points
I drink it like a camel xDD (camels can drink up to 75 l at a time)

Sleep: 20 points
I was so tired yesterday. I fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

So all in all 60 points.
I still feel like a failure though.
I'll write a proper post later. I promise

Stay strong lovelies <3

Just a little bit stronger...

I've had a few horrible days, food wise.

I don't know how much I gained but I promised myself that I would step on the scale of doom.
I hope it's not more than a pound or two, but sadly I know it is.

I'm starting the 10 day challenge again tomorrow.

I'm so sorry that I've disappointed you.

Stay strong lovelies <3

Day 1 - Do NOT fail.... Do NOT fail... Do NOT fail... SUCCESS

So all in all: a perfect score of 80!! Yay me...

Calories: 20points
mom's corn pie (1 and a half pieces) around 450

Water: 20 points (3+ l)

Exercise: 20 points
1h and 5 min of running (537cal) - thus the water xDD

Sleep: 20 points
8 + half an hour (I have problems with this one)


Emma, congrats on your first day and I'm soo sorry about your mom (mine's the same, anyway xDD )

Stay strong lovelies <3

PS. Could you do me a HUGE favor and set your comments to pop-out window, like mine?? That way I can comment on your progress too. I feel really bad about not commenting so do it for me? Pretty, pretty please with 1ib less on top (don't know about you but THAT was funny :P)

Challenge days :)

Just a quick one...
I've decided to do the 10 day challenge with Emma Phoenix starting today...



I hope I'll do good...
Anyway, since I posted yesterday before I weighed myself, I had to postpone this until today...
I reached my second goal...
And now I weigh 148.6 ibs
Happy. Happy. Happy....

Stay strong lovelies <3

Soaring... Flying... There's not a star in heaven that we can't reach....

The day started out horribly.

Mom made me eat breakfast before she went to work.
1 cup of rice (242)
I told her my stomach was upset so she left it at that.
I honestly expected her to make a big fuss over it, but when she didn't I was so relieved...
Anyway I managed to sneak some hot sauce on the rice to punish myself for eating (although it technically wasn't my fault).
That adds up to 272 cal.

I limited my cal intake to 300 and I was afraid of a binge later in the day, but guess what?
I did 10min of jumping jacks (31) and 15 min of running (129).

Which made my calorie total: 112 cal

And I have my dance class tonight so that means:
1 chewing gum (4)
30 min dancing (130)

Which will add up to.... -14 cal

That would be my first negative calorie day since I started this blog...
God I'm so happy I think I can fly...

Stay strong lovelies <3

On the coldest nights of February...

I'm hungry and I'm cold.
I haven't eaten anything so far today.
I'm happy? Content? Indifferent?
I don't know.
All I know is that if I take one little bite of food, I'll feel like a failure.
And I do NOT want to be a failure.

It felt horrible, but tasted so good....

The title tells it all...

6 pieces corn bread (260*6=1560)
2 cups of vanilla pudding (312*2=624)
3 teaspoons of nutella (115*3=345)
chocolate bar (260)
Total: 2 789 cal



I'm not even going to try to justify myself.
You can just skip the rant that follows.



Mom had her day off today and I didn't know. So I forgot to put the evidence of "breakfast" (dirty dishes, crumbs.... you know what I mean) and she concluded that I did NOT eat. That's when 3 pieces of corn bread and nutella happened.
Then I was supposed to go to school but Mother dearest wanted me to eat. That's when the pudding happened and the other three corn bread pieces. ( I managed to spill my soup and the mashed potatoes along with the meat down the garbage disposal before she saw what I was doing)
I swear sometimes I think her goal in life is to make ME fat so she could say that she's thinner than me. It's only my imagination, I suppose.
And the chocolate bar happened before dance class. My friend basically shoved it down my throat.

Weak. Weak. Weak. Fat.

Stay strong, lovelies <3

Cloud nine... maybe higher... :)

Breakfast: /
Lunch: half a cup lemon juice (41)
Dinner: /
Exercise: 500 jumping jacks (150 from yesterday and 350 today)
Total: 41-jumping jacks

Is it too obvious or I have to tell you that I am dancing around the room whenever I look at today's stats?

Btw today was weigh-in day.
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Drum roll. Please.
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153.6 ibs

Can you believe it? Because I can't.

Stay strong lovelies <3