Hey loves,
Today was an okay day I guess.
I started restricting again.
And it feels good.
Really good.
So food diary for today goes something along these lines:
2 peaches 156
3 eggs 216
180g sour milk 112
500ml tomato puree 148
4 pieces of toast 226
Total: 857 kcal, 37g protein, 124g carbs, 26g fat, 6g fiber
Not so bad I think, for a new beginning.
I have a medical condition that puts me at higher risk for diabetes type 2, so I have to be very careful with my sugar and carbs intake.
I'll have to lower my carbs intake a lot, and eat more fiber, but I'll deal with that later.
For now, I'm just happy to go back to heavier restricting and see the weight fall off again.
I went to a friend's house today.
We drank beer and ate peanuts.
I didn't allow myself to have any.
That made me feel really good about myself.
It's amazing what just one day can do.
I feel more confident and healthier and just basically good about myself.
That's strange for me, because I haven't felt like that in a long time.
All's well that ends well, I guess.
I just can't allow myself to be consumed by counting calories and weightloss and I'll be fine.
I hope.
i wish you didn't have to restrict. you're pretty amazing, you know? and i don't think of you as a number anyway.
ReplyDeletei missed you a lot, little miss fairy. i did.
i do have to tell you if you are restricting (which i don't think you need to do and i'm sad that you feel like you need to do it because you're so brilliant and you musn't feel like you should eat so little), you don't have to worry too much about your carb/sugar intake (especially since i don't think you're the type to consume a lot of sugar anyway). fruit sugars don't really count because the fibre content slows the sugar going into the blood stream.
look it's Dumbledore. *shiny eyes* oh God, HP.
"I just can't allow myself to be consumed by counting calories and weightloss and I'll be fine." aye, i agree with this. please be as careful as you can. i don't want to see you fall into a hole. i know sometimes we can't help but count and measure. i'm in recovery and i still do it. and i weigh myself daily, but it just... firstly, the amount is quite a good amount, and i don't feel like i'm starving.
i love you loads xxxx
take care of yourself, alright? and smile some for me today. :)
-Sam Lupin
I don't think of anyone as a number, although my university teachers would probably disagree with me here. :)
DeleteMissed you to Sammy. Although, I do have to say that reading that font on your blog has me in a bit of a twist. Looks nice, though.
I like to be on the safe side with it. Oh, the irony thy name is this sentence.
There IS a new movie coming out, you know? :D
There is a difference, I think, between being consumed by it and being conscious of it and trying to get it to a minimum.
I'm really glad that you're trying to get better. Makes me feel guilty that it seems as if I'm trying to get worse.
Love you too, Sammy xoxo