Hey loves...
I'm sorry for my lack of posting last week but my life is kind of hectic right now.
After EnglishRose's comment I feel the need to define "binge":
To me a binge is:
1. over 1500 calories a day
2. over 200 in one sitting
3. any amount of calories eaten without control
4. any meal that wasn't planned on happening that day
So when I say I binged....well it could be any of the four.
So I'll make sure to clarify in the future.
I have no idea what my weight is right now.
Last time I checked (Tuesday) it was 151.9
I'm afraid to step on the scale right now.
I have an 18th birthday to attend to.
My almost-boyfriend-first-crush-ex-schoolmate is celebrating it.
And I'm a fat pregnant looking whale.
I need to be under 145 by 24th.
I'm tempted to not go at all.
I feel physically sick when I think of the party and me like a fat kid in a field of daisies.
A hippo on the treadmill trying for a unicorn.
A watermelon next to the cucumbers.
I can go on, you know?
So reasons for restricting the next two weeks:
1.I'm disgusting at this weight
2.The birthday party
3. Embarrassment when being weighed
4. Not being able to sleep=more time to study (I'm a geek, sue me :P )
5. Sick of my brother's clothes
6. Pumpkins don't marry princes
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I hate the feeling. On one side I know I will feel better when empty, on the other side I will feel like I've failed myself again. Why can't I sew my mouth shut?
Totally cheering for no eating after 6 pm.
<3
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EnglishRose Petal, I've missed you A LOT. You've had me quite worried with the things you've posted recently. I'm glad you're okay though.
You can't possibly tell me that when you know how it feels when you hate yourself for being weak and eating.
<3
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You know, if I could choose being a billionaire and being able to eat whatever I wanted without gaining weight and feeling bad, I would choose the second one within a heartbeat.
Don't remind me. I hate my life. This time last year I was exactly the same weight. Ugh. Shutting up now.
And if you asked me, I'd probably tell you: "anywhere from 0 to 3000?". But you would probably guess as much.
xoxo
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TinyRose I have two roses now. ;)
I can't stop myself.
Open the fridge. Look. Close the fridge.
Open the fridge. Take a bar. Put it back. Close the fridge.
Open the fridge. Eat the bar. Close the fridge.
Open the fridge. Eat everything. Purge everything. Close the fridge.
Something like this??
xoxo
im sorry i misinterpreted you
ReplyDeletei feel like a dick
im sorry :(
i hope the birthday party goes ok
much love
xx
omgosh the first picture the blue one makes me happy :)
ReplyDeleteso i guess i binged. (i eat over 200kcal in a setting a lot actually.) and i just had 355.19 calories. 33 of them just being this hot liquid apple thing.
im sure youre not a fat pregnant whale babe
also, omgosh i just had to convert some of your measurements in inches for me and i just cried from laughter when i realised your bust measurements was like 40.9 inches. babe, i hope this makes you feel better: im pretty sure you carry 50% of your weight in your boobs.
under 145 by the twenty-fourth.
assuming you're still at 151.9, that's nearly 7 pounds in 12 days. nearly .6 pound per day. doable. just don't strain yourself too hard babe, okay?
thats a horrible prince if he won't marry his loved one because of her weight.
:)
Damon. gah. he's all "im gonna bang you, suck you dry and then leave. any questions?" xD.
me too. apparently im 'rich' according to you strange people anyway. xD.
...how do you think i feel im in the same situation
and its been 2 years i think. xD.
-Sam Lupin