I've been binging through the last week including today.
I just can't stop.
I'm a fat cow with no self control.
Also the purging disgusts me, but I'm doing it anyway...
What's wrong with me??
I stepped on the scale Friday and it said 146,6.
I just.. don't know.
I want to be under 145 so bad.... I need it....
I am going to Petnica tomorrow so I'm not going to be able to post...
It's not like anyone cares anyway...
Obviously I'm in a veeeeeeery foul mood.
Partially that's because tonight will be my last dance lesson. That means I won't be able to dance with P until September and it's killing me.
Btw he likes his dance partner K and I like him. Ironic? I believe so.
He could never like me anyway.
I mean who would like a FAT UGLY BITCH WITH NO SELF CONTROL WHAT-SO-EVER??
That's right. No one.
Looks like I'm meant to spend the rest of my days alone (since I don't want anyone but P).
Stay strong lovelies <3 Hope you're having a better day then I am...
My day is okay so far. Thanks for asking. I feel really tired though.
ReplyDeleteI had small binges for like 2 maybe 3 days in a row. I had to force my body out of it. It was so hard. I mean it was just nuts. I felt like I was going crazy. I hope that isn't happening to you as well.
I am sorry you wont be dancing again until september. I have always wanted to take dance. My dad had me in karate instead. At least it was a good work out.
Thank you for the follow lovely!
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I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. Things are rough for me too. You are so close to getting to 145. Don't give up now! I wish I could even dance. I have wanted to dance since i was little but my family never had the money to get me lessons. I bet you are amazing, and when you dance you just capture the floor.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with life
<3 xoxo
If it makes you feel any better I'm waaaaaaaaaay behind you. You'll be skinny a million years before I am.
ReplyDeleteAll my love,
Butterfly
xxx